its dreatful...

2 more weeks and im way behind schedule. aunt is buggin me to accompany her to buy camera which i know no shit about... just because i know a bit of basic DSLR function they look at me like some pro >__>

im not into camera nor i take good picture. i really dun want them to waste the money on things that its not going to be a passion for them 2 months down the road. they have kids to use those money on, and as much as i dun want to admit it. majority of the adult group doesnt have a life because their too tired to sacrificed for any, that include stress and responsibility.

going to get over this shit once and for all tomorrow... everytime she ask me out it cause me tremendous stress as i always decline her due to assignment. its damn fuck up where im trying my hardest to work, mainly coz im lazy and i need to warm up to the mood.

animation course is like racing time with the grim reaper as ur competitor. i hv time for my own enjoyment but i dun have time for others coz they cant calculate my time for me. every hang out needs to be controlled, but with relatives, everything goes down the drain.

its worst when u try to set the time limit for them to "bond" with u and they go "its always about assignment, when are u EVER going to be free?"

u. dont. understand. anything. about. my. llife.

i dun give a shit about things now. not scholarship not future not camera not diet. screw everything up and i dun care if tomorrow is the end of the world. just. fuck everything up okay, creator of this shit world?

im also partly angry coz my render crash after 19frame out of 200 and thats the first thing i woke up to see. there goes my mood for the day.

[edit]
..... trip to find her destine camera has been prolong again. and so does my work. layout decide to crash on me yet again. joy to the world.

3D painting part 2

so yea. its a sad world. 3D coat rox our arses.



Completed West faster than i expected.
(edit round 3pm+)


Completed South. the pattern is a pain.
(edit round 5pm+)


lastly wondering ghost North. this only took like 10min but i slacked. and got lazy XD
(edited 10pm+)

weapons for East are done. will continue again tomorrow. calling it a day consider this is quite a fast paste for a day's worth of texturing. dun wanna lost the quality of work so yea.. nigth guys!

pawah ranger gone wrong

when a half bake 2D artist goes lvl up and do 3D painting...




this is not what i have in mind...

and.

nick's adventure of ice cream and cockroach illustrated by me.

it-it-it's...

almost too good i might divorce photoshop soon... still dun know much about paintSAI but im starting to like it... firs the inking, now the add water function... its almost effortless in makin strokes and blending kala!!!



omg... i should be doing my assignment now... WIP red riding hood North. LOL




updated! now complete with pajamas!!! *killself*


wokay time for bed.

the rush!

i totally sux at weapons.... all character's armor done. working on the weapons now.


side note.

OMG WHAT HAVE U DONEEEEEE!!!!! hack//link just killed my sexy Endrance.... did they totally forgot that his a guy!? i credit the sexy elf ear but the outfit is.... too much. holy.... did i see chest... that is just so gheyyyyyyy *crys*


this is too horribleeeeeeee zetsuboshitaaaaaaa *lost will to do work* same goes to kuhn.

shorts of all things...... not my fav char so im not that terrified but they did a good job on his xth form. this is the only 2 char i wanna puke when i see... the others are pretty nice.

u can see here if ur interested. which i doubt theres any epic hack fan stalking my journal XD as expected, lots of ppl hate the main char for this last .Hack game... his xth form is a totaly rip off from Kingdom Hearts....

the pelvin bone armor

which im very proud of currently~ yay hellsing subbbbbb~~~~ and im doom for Finals.... way behind schedule but im still slacking. im amazed at times like these i draw the best hahahahahha go lize~

WIP


and i found out yesterday that window 7 enables destop wallpaper shuffle within set timing! omg so awesome! *after lunch* yayyy went to cut my hair and the aunty trim them super short! fu i can finally feel the wind pass my ear for the first time XD

-back to work-

D:

i didnt go to pcfair yesterday. decision dedicated to my first long cough of the morning... geez. and i ran out of medic too. got too lazy to do anything so i play class of heroes(psp) the whole day and know wat happen?

my eyes couldnt focus anything more than 50cm away. HAHAHAHAHAHA omg it was like i really needed glasses which reminded me back in 3th grade. no matter how much green i see or how i relax, they just cant focus. lmao.

so yea, finally after dinner with lx and her family... work? nay i play again. lol. okay then comes work after bath. so here's some update. finally got to model the armor after buggin nick for my already obvious how-to-do, and no nick im still not going to hire you for the armors XD


completed the pretty leg, yes stop telling me he look like argumon/guilmon/charmilion/charlizar or wat ever that looks similar D:


WIP armor. working on the neck part now. isnt it pretty? sham i need you to fix it again.... orz


sidenote, internet sux

eyer website suddenly turn bahasa... i couldnt understand shit for 5second. hahahahah yea im languageist wat ca ganna do? >D

kuro sushi

after watchin kuroshitsuji OVA i feel like painting my nails black. and so i did. thanks to Sebastian for the sudden motivation XD

its fun seeing ppl getting distracted/frown when they see me with black nails. i know i know it doesnt suit me~ but hey, im happy so i can!

kitty: eyerrrr lize so feminine!!! eyerrr eyerrr eyerrrr
me: *laughin*
kitty: eyerrr eyerrr okay stop.
me: yes.

LOL such random moments. and that was the first thing she said to me when she came back home. so yea, li xuan said blue might look nicer, so expect some blue nails coming soon. but not soon~


sham is awesome. not the legs or the nose, but the twackin of muscles.




ben, i dun appreciate you keep on bragging/teasing/sarcasm bout my powderful lapptop. you have a quart to work with previous few sem. shut it already. and i dun like to install things just for experiment. do stop telling ppl to abuse my baby.

its getting...

kind of off from my sketches... LOL


he look like his pmsing... i failed in modeling the eye lid. help me sham!! shit i just notice the mouth is too long. orz coke pls keep me high and awake~

(edit)
oh 3 hour. not bad not bad.

complete with slight muscle and pretty finger nails. LOL workin on the legs now. does it look better with "beak-like" mouth or flat out lips? guess it doesnt matter since the armor is going to cover em...

(edit2)

i gave up on the legs. im ganna ask lect on monday~ good night pplz

u know it's there~ it starts with "S"

and the answer isssssssssss "Stress" ....not sth disturbing! 8D
yay its the 1st week of June which brings the meaning of death to all of us. orz

Random Conver with Nick



yes.... his very free right now.

guess what time i sleep yesterday? 4am!!!!! hahahahahahaah its wayyyyyy over my previous record and i didnt feel sleepy at all. was competing with my younger sister on how late we slept. but she won in the end at 5am... but i won with onli 4 hour of sleep. yea~ i woke up at 8am to continue my portfolio.

i did sth which seems impossible... i've completed a portfolio- with music, slight interactivity, good transition between page, show case of 19works, a profile and an email form; in a day time. W00T I AM GOD LOLLL

i can improve more but i still have lots of deadlines and obstacles to get over with... specially Sham's 3D animation.. i know i need at least 2-3days for that.... guess i have to stay awake these few nights...

interview with Flystudio is tomorrow... so i doubt i can get any work done. so yea. back to work.


sidenote:
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG....... I JUST GOT MY FIRST EVER FREELANCE JOB!!! *tears of joy* my aunt ask me to design a logo of a ship for a phone. coz she ask her boss if he wants ppl to redesign the phone icons...

so i did. last minute and late midnight 8D her boss say it looks nice, and SO! i got the job... now i have to redesign all the phone icon LOL im so overwhelmed with joy and nervousness currently... holy crap. i cant believe this...

actually bradia gave me my first freelance job, designing his company's name card... but i slack too much to get to work and i dun know if he still want me to do or not orz

mmmm oh well~

YAY~~~

pchat again!! with ma best friend! im surprise she ask me all the sudden but im more than happy to throw all the assignment aside to draw with her. LOL.... not that im actually doing any.


she doodle quite a number before stopping for this one. i was working on ma merman since i enter LOL. so yea, we didnt have a theme and totally lost at what to draw. so yea, finally ended up with a fiyaaaaa and wuotaaaaa thing. lame i know XD

her char is going to cook ma fish! which is in a fish tank LOL getting the hang of pchat brush setting... and the zoom in function is so cool!!!!! that i feel like i was doing pixel art.... which it's not fun damn it... i cant freaking get a straight line with tablet. need mouse. but mouse grip weaker than tablet.

we stop there after a while... she went to watch some show and i teach kitty flash. AH! here's the Rabi i promise. no shadow added yet. still need to touch up but im pretty happy with the armor. loincloth lmao.... i dun know... that word just makes me laugh so much orz



oh life~

back to square one.

ah~ disappointing news which i cant review. but thanks for all EM members of their hardwork and dedication... EM shall now disband!!!! LOL like thats going to happen... so okay on to the epic moment of Boss's class today.

he made us practice italic curvy writting. orz

when he see me writing stuff slanted, he said "oh, so u need to write like that to get italic" i "heheh yeaaaa" this would be so much easier when i was back in remove.... we had to write like that for all subject that time and it was no fun killing trees....


he commented that we are toooo creative(aka stubborn/rebel in designer's term) in changing our hand writting, knowing the fact that it has been with us our whole life. so he use this tactic to attack us subconsciously... hopping we could write like this by the end of the term and will buy us coffee if we can 8D

i cant freaking write it unless i spell out the next alphabet... it's hardddd when ur too concentrated in curving than the word itself LOL


another Rabi char i drew before class started. it's a rogue magician. added rogue coz he really look homeless.... wanted to draw a stylish magician but i killed it... wanted to make this one smaller and chibi but i killed that too LOL... guess i need more bonding time with my art * 3*

slippers dedicated to susan. XD

but then again... online game allow u to customize ur outfit until u dont look like ur job, so yea, i made the wand more visible on michelle's suggestion... added a roll of potions strap but ended up making him looks like some "suicide-boomer-homeless-magician" as titled by michelle LOL I PHAIL HARD but nvm... i know then i cg things will be fine..... i hope orz

okay! 1 shopkeeper and 1 etc char to go! .......ugh damn hungry....

simulator game!!

and no... not prawn or sim or anything disturbing...

yea... i dug another grave for myself. once again. it was yet another spurr of the moment thing and well... i wanted to try interactive media again... to see if thats the thing i want for a future... i've ask pek ham what is the requirement for interactive media as a career... he said: "flash, photoshop, dreamweaver, actionscripting, html"

i drop dead when i hear "actionscripting" i mean... i can still handle dreamweaver by self learning but actionscript is a bit out of my hand... not to mention html too... used to learn a bit during high school but i stoped... erm so... im really frustrated on wat to aim as a career right now...

oh, just in case u dun know. simulator games are like those, choices and progress games.

this is princess nightmare.... looks interesting... i never played any before. but i wanted to make one, weird huh XD

er.... putting that aside, about the whole simulator game. well, ill tell u the whole story for today's class~ a bit of self braggin coz i can! muahahahahahahhaachokechooke okayyy here goes:


---- (skip if you want) ----
pek ham enter class, ask us how is our story plannin going on for our so called "team" project... which mean, a individual assignment but with the same story line. so nick suggested an easy one "daydream of 4 char" which is understandable... then i suggested "4 char get a letter and have to deliver back the letter after their journey" which is okayyy since there's a start and an end.

then ben ranted, i cant remember the detail but he was getting to my nerves... i try to keep out of the "discussion" saying once nick and ben agree, me and ken will do the work. which i notice now is very irresponsible and childish LOL OMG I GOTTEN MATURE ALL THE SUDDENNN orz

so yea.. i tried to keep quite and figure what they are trying to say, specially ben whom speak ph ubbet l33t language where ken, nick and me dun get a thing... well pek ham kind of a bystander and amused by our arguments. so yea, when i retranslate his "ubber" language to ken and nick, it make perfect sense and well.. it sounded more cool XD

so yea... the story settle down to "4 online game char which is 4 different clan will meet in a portal, carrying a ouroboros symboled item" that took 1hour to agreed on...

then there comes the naming the online game part... which took nearly 2hour to get it conclude. and i was pretty much an sore ass already. but ken made some pretty good name, like Ark Online and Geotrus Online, its the name which all our horoscope combined. for me i made quite some contribution thouhg im a pain in the ass to get agreement XD Gates online, Nikenbenze Online (name combined) and lastly the selected one Ouroboros Online. actually i pick ouroboros coz it will be cool if the portal is the tail devouring snake XD

and yeahhhh the using one storyline was my idea tooooo!!!! D: *fufufu i know i have potential for sth after all*
---- (end of long winded story) ----


so yea. nick decided to either 2D or 3D animation.... ben decide to do 3D mixed video and ken decided to do a character show case. well... this journal's title explained mine... so yea... im ganna have a lot to cg... and a lot to work on... gwad bless my sinful soul...



okay, ill reward my dear reader with a kickass video again for readin through my rants XD freakin photo stop motion video ftw!!!

going homeeeeee~~~

in 3more hours ill be stepping into za bus and go back my hometown for the week. so here's a summary on the past few days.

3D animation assignment done. heres the promo poster XD

ill consider upload my animation here or somewhere or maybe not :P


and surprise doodle in our classroom...

have no idea who did it but we have a very high possibility it's him...
HIMMMMMMMM LOLLL


well okay... yesterday night when drinking with some ppl that i cant tell orz.. as expected i cant really drink... after dinner i have like 1can and it felt super bitterrrr and the second can was okay... and the 3.5can is bahhhhhh just drink it in one breath and faster go home sleep LOL

was plannin to have some fun CGing or playing games.... well there goes my plans... got home, change my cloths then drop dead one bed..... reading fanfiction in the dark LOL like 2 long chapter until i really feel like sleeping... then stupid ppl make noise in the middle of the night...


.....i should get back to my packing now hehehehheeheh..... well, house line is horrible so i wont be able to update for the rest of this month. maybe, or none. so yea dear PJCAD students HAPPY HOLIDAYS and readers GOOD DAYY orz

so much to do so little time m(-_-)m

actionscript...

erm, vincent... i know u have high hope and high demands but...

givin all actionscript1.0 stuff to us, which doesnt work in actionscript2.0 is not going to achieve any of our needs and hope to satisfy you... i spend the whole night just to discover that fact... like the last afternoon.. and to say im kind of going to give out now...

just going to do the rest of the website and pass up... next time, dear vincent, get us better example to copy at okay? coz im really getting mentally tired... you tell us not to study scripting and just copy paste from other ppl... but that doesnt really work...

... going to do my 3D rigging now... and call it a night... need to focus on my 3D for this week.. it's ganna sux and i know it... hey silent reader out there. drop me a "hi" i need it once in a while. anything's good. random shit's good too.


nights.


ps.
is there anyone out there that wants to be my personal programmer?
is my white color font giving u dizzy blur effect while reading this?
is my right arm sore due to over usage of mouse?

I AM THE MAIN CHAR!!!!

yes! i am the main character of my story and this journeyyyyy!!!!!
(note: onli nick, benF, benK and pH know wat i am blah-ing about)

well... due to the law of forbidden content i cant rant... it might endangered me and another lovely lect's life. so yea, i posted this journal to make u all ubber curious FUFUFUFUFUFU

anyway... PJCAD cant never be the same again... as for those who are reading this. dun ask, ill tell ya after i graduate XP but ill give ya sth in return! RAPIS---- I MEAN RABBIT LIZARD!!!! lol...


i was testing out some texture brush and wanted to paint a tree but when susan ask if it's a bunny... i think, heck why not XD so! this is dedicated to susan yo!

this is the reason why i wanted to try texture painting...

supposingly a fish skin UV map.... sham and the others wanted me to paint it then let them texture on the 3D fish.... i epic phail so badly i wanna cry.... it look like some mutated frog.... but after sham slap it on the fishie, it looks kickass... though i wasnt able to save a pic of the 3D coz colle com hangs and crash...

okay, last thing, my animatic for my 3D animation. expect somthing worse then this in the future! hahahahha lol.... if i manage to finish rendering it that is...



PS.
nick, i know ur reading this 8D

artist/designer's block?!

this month is horrible... i have not a clue on wat to do for all my assignment. this term is all mostly on video and 3D. minor website or flash. video is my weak subject so im really scared for this term and im feel really pressured about my grades and outcome of the assignment.

today was a total "idk" (i dun know) day... nick and ben was like... where to go... what to do, after we had lunch together. nick is damn optimistic today, he explain to me that "when ur sad im happy" so i told him "oh, so when im happy u hv to be sad then" he said yes and reply "so you better faster become happy now"

oh gwad... i have such good friends around me. they try so hard to motivate and cheer me up... im really happy and touch to have them in my life. im currently having a depression pms so i know it my fault that i made them worried. its my fault that i screw up my life and those things around me.

nick said one thing during lunch "i need to tease you to get new idea" i went "wtf". hahaha didnt know i was such a good inspiration medium.... that explains why most of the ppl i know "bullied" and tease me. LOL im actually helping them in a way hahahahah so sad...

there comes another case which i screw up another person's life, but she's too saint to be angry at me and we had that problem solved... they want me to cheer up but i know its my fault so i couldnt... i was very angry at myself for being a klutz and so careless.... i need to improve my memory and my attentiveness.

when home with ben today and we drop by the swing at the near by playground. omg i miss the swing... its reminiscing bout the carefree time of being a kid... and the joy of staring up the blue sky until the sun burns your eye. we chatted quite a while, mostly stupid talk about childhood and life. it was fun, since all of us have blocks and dry on ideas this term... too dry... it scares us.

came up with another new dish today for dinner, housemates said it was good, but i think it taste normal... wonder what they tasted special in it... it just "carrot-potato-veggie-chili source" fried. LOL im getting good at mixing things up and cooking all-in-one-pot dishes... well at least i finally got myself some greens to eat :P

CNY is around the corner, and my trip back home got forward earlier. hope my home's internet is way better than the one im using... oh yea, before i go, here my attempt on mecha modeling. i was sulking about how i sux at 3D and wanted to do sth to cheer myself up, so i went back to medabots... nice anime which needed more luv.


I might do a set of those type that i like... ben saw what i did and he was tempted to do one too. ben is such a kiasu(sore loser aka competitive). we tell nick to make one too so we can do some battle royal thing XD

this is just a tin can of medabots. but it kind of reminded me of psyndog...

still left the lower leg, arms and im done. might finish it tonight or maybe later... Mr willy's assignment is giving me the fear or failing... need to do a intro for tv chnl or movie.... im no tv person and as i mention, im weak with video... which is why im scared of my grade drop coz last term was all video... and that fuck up person = =

ONE LAST THING!!!!!! I HAVE NOW OFFICIALLY CUT TIES WITH SBO OR ANY OTHER THINGS THAT I DUN WANNA BE INVOVLED IT!!!! HAHAHAHHAHA IN YOUR FACE FUCKERRRRRR!!!!!!

*runs*

yay holidayyyyyy

yes. the title said it all.
finish all deadline and happily watching anime.

heres my 3D assignment. i still suck, but im happy anyway~

dear sham add some depth of field and some lighting texture on it, so its all blurry and pretty <3
its been fun doing 3D. my lappy is hanggy n laggy now. LOL

happy holiday pjcad-ians~

new reply.

new reply from elsevilla..... i have no idea what he mean. its either you asked, and you dun know or your saying i dun know why.... what happen to your english la elsevilla.... your journal is like so gwad damn informative and it totally different from ur short note = =

maybe ur just too pissed to type long msg to me...



aside from that... my 3D assignment!

the freaking keyboard and speaker took the most time....
now... i left the window, texturing, lighting, rendering and printing...
*dies*

deadline on tues, actually on wed but im going home at 11..... TT__TT

gotten sick

which is really bad timing... less than 2 weeks left and i not sure i can finish my deadline >__>"

i've joined a scanlation group too. there was a brave soul who pick up mother keeper as her 1st project, since i wanted to translate that title for a long time, i offer her my help XD

first duty was to translate the whole volume 2 O__o to be honest im shock. i tot ill be doing chap by chap.... but my fangalism got the better of me as i spring into work mode and completed 4 chap within 4 days..... whao.... i scared myself some times.

oh yea, back to being sick. i got it from new wing, which was pretty much a spreading virus all over the building. jolin got sick the same way i did, ben kong's class all infected. and well... some other ppl got it from me HAHAHAAAAHAHA opps. but cant blame me, i was a victim too :P

1st day : sore throat
2nd day : flu
3th day : flu & coughing
4th day : flu & short breath coughing

...

oh yeah did some 3D stuff. it was harddddd coz sham was like blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh okay now u try it. dun need to take note. jz do it! and then he continue his weird babble.... which is totally weirdddddd i cant help but to twitch an eyebrow but that expression amuses him as it encourage him to do it more...... oh gwad... i have good but weird lect....

here my retarded island and eye burning texturing~ when it was rendering, the water kind of sparklessssss i was like \(*A*)/ omgggg sparkleeesssssss LOL



and then i got a stupid email too...


it said : this is a super special love email, only comes once in a hundred years, if you get it, means you can escape from pain and go to heaven... if you don't forward this someone will hate you!

.... wtf? hundred years? i mean, stupid mail is stupid. but i didnt know became so retardedly stupid. do email exist in 1808? but seriously... who is the one started all this stupid spam, i rather receive gorely informative email then those retard ones.... like curses and luck n love, fuck that, i've broken unlimited chain mail and why am i still alive? *sign* stupid human abusing their free time...

*cough cough cough* didimentionflemtastekindofsweet? *cough cough cough

internet sux..... rainy season is here again... i need a healthy meal.... i wanna eat apple... so lazy.... hahahah BN's event is doommm...... need to finish assignment.... need to buy ticket to go home.... need to pratice drawing for artjam session.... so sia pai if i cant draw for any art trade.... or ill hv to make another excuses not to go.... but i wanna face the fact now.... urg so lazy.....

okay, last thing before i drop dead. IM GOING TO COMIC FIESTAAAAA!!!! wuuhuuuuuu~~~
time to spend money and get my end of the bargain.... yaoiyaoiyaoiyaoi 8D
and im going to cosplay next yearrrrrrr *unwavering determination <- not

k... ciao-ing now..

oh i forgot to mention, i dislike ppl reply me "k" or "kk" coz it makes me feel like im very annoying and they want to finish the conversation asap... i know im thinking too much but it might be true XD