Graduation

not as pretty as i imagine it would be. erm, sad to say its horrible. many parents are unhappy and complains galore. i'll list down the good and bad for this day.

but i shall quote myself back "Diploma has its limitation."



Good point:
1. i like my male-host/waiter/bartender-look. some said they couldnt recognize me XD
2. i had fun before the event started.
3. i graduated.
(yea thats all)



Bad point:
1. Personal
- my family is very handicap. of all days which i need to take care of em. why my graduation. and i woke up with sore throat.

2. Organization
- messing up our line and telling us to regroup again. waste of time. telling us to walk the whole round up and down and up again just to go receive/back to our seat. how stupid is that. and ur announcement is not making any point nor is it reaching to our ears.

(so yea fine. i'll put up with it seein ur an old guy and college is pretty unorganized)

3. Mood
- when i enter the "cinema" i was expecting nice decoration with stage and curtains and at least a nice wall for the projector to shine on. but no. floor, boxes, plain wall, weirdly located chairs and rainbow coloured seats. and u've pretty much shame us all with the no sound presentation video.

(is this how 25th anniversary are suppose to be?)

4. Break
- well, distributing ceremony ended rather fast. minus the erm.... not so ear-candy speeches. break was just horrible. i barely had a drink ( though i did sip from icha's glass and took one of her snacks ) and waste of time with no chair to sit on. who do u think my parents and grandma is? in their 20's? they freakin hurt their sorry feet and immobile enough to let me feel guilty for leaving them alone.

(next time, get a better organizer that doenst make Fashion show as main events)

5. Show/Shoe
- hey look what my mom and grandma said "fashion show damn boring"
- my dad had a good nap
- my younger sis was hardcore psp-ing
- the people was watching the movie instead of the models. well done mr.organizer.

(so... what was this occasion about again?)

6. Dinner
- back to the no chair and Rm100 for this shit? i mean i was expecting something better to be honest. the satay was good so does the fish meat. and the took the drinks until the waiter recognized me. "hi again" "oh its you" later on "heyyy u again" "yea halleluyah this time its for me"
- so yea, not enough tables, not enough chairs, not enough food to go around and u pretically strave everyone just cause ur scared after ppl eat they wont see ur freakin fashion show! complains are in the air and its the first thing i heard when everyone comes down.

(do u know that artistic children like us are supported with workaholic parents with not much entertainment and pretty much very simple in mind?)

7. Ending
- was sore feeting and with family to take care with. i wanna spend most of my time with my friends instead but guiltiness over took me. overall its not a pretty day. cept for the camwhoring and photos with lecturers.



if they leave us alone to cam whore and the parents to chat with one another. it wouldnt have been so terrible. as much as i dun wanna admit it. i think i could do better with event organization. all i need is money and man power.

please vote for president lize!!!

Panic time!

im so dead. erm okay, first to all my epic readers. i wont be updating until i finish all my assignments. which is.... 2 more weeks to deadline and im no where near 30%. shit doom this time. this term is freaking short and i dun have a freakin portfolio for interview or even to save my own life.

er.....pretty much it la... going back home during labor day was great..... marketing is pretty much okay so far... just that ben is a freakin lazy ass... but its all good... coz im on my pms. so cant be helped. haiz.... i feel guilty for letting sham down... im really not fit to do 3D animation after all...

okay well. enough depressing moment. i started to read fairy tail, its okay... for wasting a few bored hours.

this got me all amazed yesterday.

32 fps attack ftw 8D


and holy crap shit. heroes season 5 faster come!!!! OH theres one thing i wanna rant. just one sentence:


self-centered ppl are self-centered.


yup. thats all ^^; until further needy rants.
take care pplz. and watch this one. let do this prank too!!!

back to square one.

ah~ disappointing news which i cant review. but thanks for all EM members of their hardwork and dedication... EM shall now disband!!!! LOL like thats going to happen... so okay on to the epic moment of Boss's class today.

he made us practice italic curvy writting. orz

when he see me writing stuff slanted, he said "oh, so u need to write like that to get italic" i "heheh yeaaaa" this would be so much easier when i was back in remove.... we had to write like that for all subject that time and it was no fun killing trees....


he commented that we are toooo creative(aka stubborn/rebel in designer's term) in changing our hand writting, knowing the fact that it has been with us our whole life. so he use this tactic to attack us subconsciously... hopping we could write like this by the end of the term and will buy us coffee if we can 8D

i cant freaking write it unless i spell out the next alphabet... it's hardddd when ur too concentrated in curving than the word itself LOL


another Rabi char i drew before class started. it's a rogue magician. added rogue coz he really look homeless.... wanted to draw a stylish magician but i killed it... wanted to make this one smaller and chibi but i killed that too LOL... guess i need more bonding time with my art * 3*

slippers dedicated to susan. XD

but then again... online game allow u to customize ur outfit until u dont look like ur job, so yea, i made the wand more visible on michelle's suggestion... added a roll of potions strap but ended up making him looks like some "suicide-boomer-homeless-magician" as titled by michelle LOL I PHAIL HARD but nvm... i know then i cg things will be fine..... i hope orz

okay! 1 shopkeeper and 1 etc char to go! .......ugh damn hungry....

decision decisions...(long rant)

there comes another life threatening question. which im will have to really think, coz it's my future. my life to be more accurate... 2D or 3D?

vernon have an eccentrics; no teaching experience; graduate of this colle, lecturer on hand which wanted to join us. if all four of us agreed on 3D he will not be teaching us, but if we wanted 2D, he will be our lect. vernon mention that he is wayyyyyy more eccentric than insomnia sham or un-understandable mr.teh ..... so i dun really like the sound of it.. beside that, he is also those kind of "do it my way" person and will be harsh/sarcastic/pushy person... according to vernon's pass interaction with him..

so all of that doesnt sound good to me... but heres the catch. if we pick 2D, we will be drawing more with wacom in flash. we will purely be flash animator and maybe learn how to use toonboom. we will have Digital Media class with Sham given that 3D is still part of our lesson(because we requested it) and that's the road we have to take during internship and maybe for our life.

so yea... its a really big decision... i wanted to be a 3D modeler since the whole animating and rendering kills my passion. so much for working with square enix *LMAO* so yea... but omar said that wanting to enter the gaming field, i need to know anatomy very well, and i need pretty good drawing skill at that... so im pretty much suicide case in society world.... i dun know the world, i dun know famous ppl's name, i dun know design/gaming/animator/film/media company or shit lots of stuff which im suppose to.... im just an ignorant kid whom onli do thing she likes...

so that push me off the cliff... im determined to improve myself after i graduate... though its too late but better than never... plannin to take drawing course/class... when i find out who is offering... so im very scared right now. put aside that i lack time to anime and render my 3D...

okay. so back to vernon. he keep on pushin 2D and saying 3D is hard to find job... omar and willy recommended us to improve our motion graphic specially in after effect... coz thats the life line for every opportunity... but vernon cant add that subject into our course... coz he said we onli have 7 weeks for those lots of stuff... we cant risk any time wasting coz we are already in semester5... one semester away from graduation.. one semester away from BIG FAT FINALS...

why do i feel like our class is the lab rat... i mean, all the new stuff is tested on us. all the failures have thrown to us to fix them up... all those missin classes due to lect's own personal emergency... all those risks and all those decision... i can see from the fact that we are more capable from our senior or even juniors... the fact that they are really givin all the pressure and high hopes on us but is this really necessary? im personally not a challenging person.. im more like giving my best and get it over with... but this is like a guilt sentence... i mean... if i.. or we dont break our limits of wat we are capable of... it's like... they are saying we're doing it half heartedly... and i can tell u, we've been told once by that bastard and it doesnt feel good AT ALL.

this is really hard..... i dun want another bastard-like lect... i dun wanna die that fast to due brain overangered. i want a flexible ones... a lect which can understand us... like sham or vincent or willy... so far me and ken kind of voted for 2D coz we personally like it. I personally voted coz i wanna save frustration for 3D coz im not good at it.... sadly.... and also that fact that we can still do 3D.

nick is surely going for 3D coz thats wat he aim since he enter colle. i really salute him coz his determination never seem to be shaken by any factors... ben on the other side wants everything. as usual.

vernon said he cant have both 2D and 3D class on the same go... its either 2D or 3D... i can say he wants us to kill one another... because... think about it. if only nick wants to do 3D while the 3 of us voted for 2D, then nick will be force to join us... isnt that unfair? his paying his fee but his not doing wat he wants... its like force labor but more horrible...

how? its all horrible choices but we still have to make them... tell me... how? loop holes are everywhere.... i dun have the equipment nor patiences/skill for 3D.... i dun want a arsehole lect for 2D nor i want to give up on it... life is full of decisions.yes. im just facing one that decide those other in the future... but wat if im force to accept it?

its not middle age where ppl just keep quiet and "oh it cant be helped"... im rebellious and i put on a facade if i need too.. but once u tick me off, i dun want to see your face in my life. though coffee addict ms chan advise me that working life is going to be more harsh... i still believe i need to be who i am.



decisions. becoming of a conclusion.
for my life. and for myself.

thus i shall take. the road not taken.
the other path shall be a wonder.

saved for next life? or never to venture.
the time is here. walk on my trusted feet.

lead me to my future.

I AM THE MAIN CHAR!!!!

yes! i am the main character of my story and this journeyyyyy!!!!!
(note: onli nick, benF, benK and pH know wat i am blah-ing about)

well... due to the law of forbidden content i cant rant... it might endangered me and another lovely lect's life. so yea, i posted this journal to make u all ubber curious FUFUFUFUFUFU

anyway... PJCAD cant never be the same again... as for those who are reading this. dun ask, ill tell ya after i graduate XP but ill give ya sth in return! RAPIS---- I MEAN RABBIT LIZARD!!!! lol...


i was testing out some texture brush and wanted to paint a tree but when susan ask if it's a bunny... i think, heck why not XD so! this is dedicated to susan yo!

this is the reason why i wanted to try texture painting...

supposingly a fish skin UV map.... sham and the others wanted me to paint it then let them texture on the 3D fish.... i epic phail so badly i wanna cry.... it look like some mutated frog.... but after sham slap it on the fishie, it looks kickass... though i wasnt able to save a pic of the 3D coz colle com hangs and crash...

okay, last thing, my animatic for my 3D animation. expect somthing worse then this in the future! hahahahha lol.... if i manage to finish rendering it that is...



PS.
nick, i know ur reading this 8D

new begining!

holy crap, not at the fact that college started but at the fact that there is a new intake student that looks like my old school friend when shes not wearing glasses, anddddd it doesnt stop there. when she wear glasses, she looks like kidchan!!!! orz

oh gwad, having dinner with this new friend made me all happy and excite, weird and i wanna stare so much i think it will burn a hole in her if i do LOL. she looks like another person in colle when i first meet her. but now... the more i look the more she looks like kidchan.... gwadddd im idolizing kidchan so much i feel like some obsessive stalker XD

okay puttin her aside, colle start and good news for this term. that arsehole that dominated my ranting zone last year(no, not the government loser political group) either got fired or fired himself, either way i dun care, im just glad his freaking off my life. we are redoing most of our subject and hopefully my result is not going to be as horrible....

OH YEAHHHHHHH the new intake righttt, its a really interesting batch! there 2 korean gal, theres(finally) a guy from my hometown!!! and it doesnt stop there, theres a gal from china and ANDD!!! A GUY FROM EGYPT!!! shitttt i never tot i could see a real live egyptian in my lifeeeee!!!! not that the fact that he has ancient clothing or exotic tatoo... he looks exactly like any normal guy on the streets to be honest... but but butttt his egyptiann OMG OMG OMG *fangal mode on*

besides making new friends, and meeting new faces, i havent been to the old building... well doesnt matter, since im ganna be there for the next 1&1/2 year.... and tomorrow is teh tarikkkk waiiiiiii with class after that = =" hopefully the new lect that is going to teach us is nothing like that flat-slidable-bar-counter-ass(new nickname by nick)

this term is looking brighter and better now... not to mention vincent is going to teach us authoringgggg WOOT!! im a little worry at his scripting lesson... but i know he'll pull it off somehow. why? coz he is a great and fun lect and he has the name of the character i love XD

internet is a really upset baby now... needs a new pacifier... urg... more time and concentration for me... its kind of bad and good at the same time... hmmm.... should have bring some anime up for rainny day~

tsh... oh well... ill do some scanlation to waste time.

ja, to all the reader out there, thanks for readin my rant and anonymously supporting me for the past one year, really appreciated even if your just read my title and close :P

wish ya all the best in the year of ox. lets trash through those problem that is coming for us and full speed ahead towards our goal! again, thanks a lot ^^

A Really Idiotic Fucking Fellow

okay im piss off today. for my education life, this is the first time im piss to the core. this is far worst than the time of hair salon project during foundation.

if you want to read about it open the image link, coz i dun wanna write a 1 page long of a journal to pollute my beautiful blog.

mornin was good, i found lots of illustration website with great drawin. i've done all my deadline cept for the 3D ones but im still happy destpite the fact that my grades arnt going to be as good.

then around 11sth Arif aka Mr. Dicassless came in and said he had something to do so he will be late. well we are fine about it. around 11:50sth he came in and said there will be no presentation for our finals today. well, we're fine with that.

here comes the part that blew everyone's patiences off. Here.
this text was type with anger and hate, spelling and grammar doesnt matter. some facts might have been misinterpreted but according to my anger they are 80% correct.

so after he left. giving us no choice but to keep quite during the whole conversation.
this is my inner respond. offensive words warning.
oh yea, forgot to mention. his the one that got all personal with us. keep on digging up old story to pick a fight with us. so whose the childish one here?

we went for lunch all pissed off and ready to kill anyone. with our heated conversation goes on, we decided not to believe in lecturers anymore, the fact that they will understand or even help us in our point of view. we decided to keep everything distant and not to rely on anyone but onli the four of us whom had suffered the same treatment.

after lunch we had a talk with vernon. he understand and agree to give us new lect for next term. whether there is Mr Willy or not i dont care anymore. vernon tell us not to stress too much and have a relaxing holiday. forget about wat have happen and he will do his part to redeem our so-called "lose end"

vernon apologize for this idotic green horn and said it was partly his fault. we dont want to make vernon stress too coz he was so damn happy in the morning... and well, his not as bad as we think he is. he did mention something like we reported a bit too late since its the end of the term and he would like us to keep this kind of relationship with him.

if we were to have bad result. the animation course is going down hill. we are the elite and not to mention the 1st batch in this course. i can see that they have high hopes in the four of us since semester 3. and of coz they dun want to lose us for the pride of the colle.

hahahah... i know im bragging but its kind of true if i must say.

well... i feel so much better knowing that bastard is getting out of my way. going to rush my 3D modeling and enjoy my priceless holiday..... im so going to.... ever since that idiot mess up my life so much.

pitiful being.

such a sad thing to have to start my December blogging about colle and their "wonderful" lect.



okay, the lect we hate, we nickname him Dicassless (go figure)
today was the deadline for authoring2 so we pass up our experimental website. he was 12minute late for class. so we jz burn the dis and pass up the compilation of research he wanted.

then he called for ken, and threated him about failing him & us. ken is the most quite person among us and he doesnt even show an obvious rebel. unlike us. ken was talking to him like normal but he sees it as "attacking" him. such an ass.

since its obvious we dun like you, the way you teach, the way you talk, you might as well get another lect to teach us. your probably going to give us a low mark anyway though we did well if i must say. no use arguing since you have the "lect" authority to crush us.

it was on the brief that we need to pass up another HTML file of thw web, but you didnt teach us. like always. and you even ask us if we want to present it. there was a chance for "no" as an answer so we have the rights. but in the end i guess you exit the room dissatisfied and DUDE YOU FREAKING FORGOT OUR REPORT BOOK. don't come crying to us when u lose it or say we didnt pass up and you took the opportunity of "ignorance" to reduce our marks....

you don't deserve our respect.



To Mr Willy,
when someone told me that you were the person that shared elsevilla's art and let that student color it. i got bit irritated. i pass you my whole DA collection folder coz you were interested in CG and i believe you would hold on to my words. i told you "if you want to color them, u can. but you cant post them in public. if you want to do so, ask for permission"


original source : elsevilla.deviantart

but your student didnt not.... more over it was printed on colle magazine. which im so ashame right now to be here.... colle printing an unauthorized artwork, elsevilla can sue. and i dun want to be known that im from that kind of college. im thinking now whether i should report to elsevilla and make myself innocent or.... i just dun know anymore...

such a wonderful line art that was colored in such degree..... even i (yes i know my level) wasnt dare to TRY coloring elsevilla's work.... his lineart is way too kickass for the current me... i know my place. and yes i admit, im a Deviantart fanatic. i take art of those ppl i stalk with great deal and i admire them to the core.

you kind of disappointed me, Mr Willy.



To Angie,
your going to leave college i see... well im going to missed you. you gave us a hard time in foundation but im grateful and happy if compared to my current situation.

but good news. theres a rumor that Dicassless is going to quit. whose the one saying "we are passionate" fuck that. you sux and your senile, face it, ur are better off freelancing than teaching.

okay back to Angie. going to miss you... seriously. your bossy and demanding at times but its all good. thanks a lot. let me know when you are officially leaving. ill give u a bear hug! luvvvv



well.... i dun think my result is going to be good this semester..... due to Dicassless. hope my parents dun mind... hope i get a loan or scholarship... like where the fuck is my certificate!? its been a freaking yearrrrrr how can our college be so slowwwwwwww... like slower than a snail...

good things come and go.

due to a worthless lect, the lect we like now turn againts us.

he didnt know the full story behind that arsehold and the way we were tortured.
maybe he was stress and we shown him our bad side.
but that doesnt matter. he was partly right, not all.
we have the rights to hate that guy.

well, farewell. until a new leaf is turned, ever crossing our roads, thus we shall be parted.

To : Mr.Willy