its dreatful...

2 more weeks and im way behind schedule. aunt is buggin me to accompany her to buy camera which i know no shit about... just because i know a bit of basic DSLR function they look at me like some pro >__>

im not into camera nor i take good picture. i really dun want them to waste the money on things that its not going to be a passion for them 2 months down the road. they have kids to use those money on, and as much as i dun want to admit it. majority of the adult group doesnt have a life because their too tired to sacrificed for any, that include stress and responsibility.

going to get over this shit once and for all tomorrow... everytime she ask me out it cause me tremendous stress as i always decline her due to assignment. its damn fuck up where im trying my hardest to work, mainly coz im lazy and i need to warm up to the mood.

animation course is like racing time with the grim reaper as ur competitor. i hv time for my own enjoyment but i dun have time for others coz they cant calculate my time for me. every hang out needs to be controlled, but with relatives, everything goes down the drain.

its worst when u try to set the time limit for them to "bond" with u and they go "its always about assignment, when are u EVER going to be free?"

u. dont. understand. anything. about. my. llife.

i dun give a shit about things now. not scholarship not future not camera not diet. screw everything up and i dun care if tomorrow is the end of the world. just. fuck everything up okay, creator of this shit world?

im also partly angry coz my render crash after 19frame out of 200 and thats the first thing i woke up to see. there goes my mood for the day.

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..... trip to find her destine camera has been prolong again. and so does my work. layout decide to crash on me yet again. joy to the world.