DEAD BLOG HELL YEAH

i'll say it. coz i wanna say it right now when my mood is high and happy.

I'm Amazing.

Self taught digital artist. From a mere hobby i've waste my youth over, i can now do online commission which people are happy to receive and pay for. My passion had brought me work more than what i study in college. I made tons of great friends online. Even if its stupid of me to trust and believe them coz it's an online world, i dont care, i do. Im learning CSS on my own, Im taking C# programming lesson from my online friend and im still drawing with glee.

I'm Amazing.

it takes a lot for me to say it but i feel like i can say it easily these days. i see improvement on things. online friends cheering and helping me along the way. its a great feeling. when i stare down on my notebook and see all the code.

Shit i would have snort and wont understand a thing but now. i do. it bring tears to my eyes. i might have stray from path to path which i initially set but i regret nothing. it was a great journey i couldnt have ask for more. Onwards to more improvements!

the cutest thing happen

this morning when i was walking my usual way to the LRT station.

A stray dog decided to walk along side me on my journey.

yea, damn cute, his pretty old, tailness but looks clean and tame. light brown and short fur. we pass by each other mind our own business until i hear some steps behind me after a while. he was following me behind and licking my right hand. lmao i wish hiro would do that.

and so he followed as i asked what he wanted. i stop a little he stare at me, i stare back then i resume as he continue to tag along. guess he only wanted to play? well, i bet the other ppl walking behind thinks his my dog or sth... until i almost reach to the train station...

HE STILL WANTS TO FOLLOW ME.

i shoo-hand-signal him, he back away a little and stood still watching me go. so cute.

healthy look = bad health

well apparently PH drag all of us out after work to go for health check. mine ain all that bad but its consider pretty horrible if we have office-health-ranking lmao

40/99
i got D, oh mather im going to die soon hahahahaha from the chart, my stress level is over the roof. the doctor said if theres no border around the chart, my stress pin point would have flew out somewhere higher. and its seems to me like im mentally unbalance.

"dont thing about life not worthy living"

i went wtf? do i look like im about to commit suicide any second now? im faking smiling and trolling everyone out of joy and torture pleasure. that chart is false!

one thing that surprises me is that my Lung and Kidney is on red alert. i guess living in the city has finally taken the toll of this little gecko. i need my greens!!! no, not vegetable. ew. i dont like them but doctor tell me to eat more bawwwww whyyyyyyyyy fine im just going to buy seaweed >T

among all the staff... one that shock all of us, well okay 2 that shock all of us is Fabian and CHou, Fab which miserable apperance like he never had a good night sleep for months has the highest score 80/99 while CHou the healthy looking one whom had things to eat for breakfast and milk to sip on is 25/99

wow. mind blasting.

so i heard u liek mudkip?

lmao random title is random. so yea. today ain a good day but i discover a few more things. my blog entry seems to be getting shorter and shorter... minus those that i bitch about pplz... well i guess the saying about happiness being short is true rofl.

so here goes.

1. Mom called in the morning ( seems like she lost her voice; shes barely vocal ) and told me my blood test result ain pretty according to the nurse. I have no idea what wrong yet since she barely had the 'sound' to tell me. hope she doesnt go emo in my place if it is sth serious. i always knew there was sth special about me. lmao. but hey, i bet its not that serious.... i hope.

2. The female Admin in the office is a thief. First day i meet her and she end up running away with one of my workmate's laptop and PH's laptop. Not that i remember her name nor face at all since i need a while to register when i make new connections.

so yea, she wanted to join 3 of us for lunch ( all the sudden according to fabian coz she always eats alone all these times ) and so we did, we settled down and she suddenly "forgot" to bring her wallet and phone out so fabian gave his key to her.

to our suspicious.... she didnt come back for some time, and Fabian went to check on the office. Ph's laptop was gone. and so he came back and told us, I finish my meal and return back coz i was worried about my laptop. I never trusted Malay/Indian worker... they tend to have... thief related problems or just went MIA after borrowing money. not to say im racist. rly.

so like yea. my laptop is safe and sound but YH's laptop isnt. She ran off with 2 lappy with company work in them.... and surprisingly. Fabian was ragging more ( though none of is stuff was stolen ) because he blame himself for not tailing the bitch since he felt sth was off. on the other hand YH was really calm and cool... to the point that he only cares about the music and game level that he gotten are all gone now.

lmao. epic fellow. his so saint he said he wasnt sad at all because he believe in karma. i. ttly respect this guy. if i was me, i'll be fucking shit up already LOL and as for PH.... his cool with it too. He was more worried about the Mac and his book being stolen. not concerning about the destop nor his missing laptop. rich guy damn it.... //too lazy to write the whole story//

oh. but the xbox is still safe 8D

3. we dun punch card. and im working on unstable hours. login by 9am but off from work unknown. so i might need to recalculate my traveling fee since i'll be taking taxi more.... wuwuwuwu.... this salary raise ain going to cut it orz


and. finally. i am now constipated coz the bitches is hoggin the toilet for 1 hour+ now.

the 10 day count down

so enough of my emoness and rants on bitches. lets see some stupidity and randomness as i count down to saying good bye to free pretzel everytime i visit outlet which the manager over there knows me. baw. no more free food orz

i cant remember if i posted this before but... ew. so much for "big" breakfast... McD cheat ppl's feeling.


earth hour. i was there in sunway pyramid and sign the board and what not and got myself a glow in the dark wrist band! they said its made from recycled material.... hmm...

aye. stupid ppl and they lameass msg. "Leave my green alone" how awsum is mine? -shot-

so went home with a bag of stolen pretzel, well, they were damaged goods and cant be sold, so i save myself from starving and made tons of cinnamon sugar torn up pretzels and one mini bag of green tea pretzel coz i know im the only one on earth that loves them LMAO


classic way of earth houring.



with roomie HL... so scary LOL and we just saw like trailer on "Paranormal Activity: Tokyo Night" which doesnt really help since the living room is so big and nth good is on limited channel Astro hahahaha.

and.

my blood test result is not out yet. why. i paid rm125 for that private treatment but its taking longer than public service!? lel that sounds so wrong but hey..... there just might be sth going on with my blood. well. just. might. / *A* /

NERVOUS BREAKDOWN ZOMG

like i threw ma letter of resignation today. and i can tell u its faking scaryyyyyyyyyyyy i've repeated my storied over and over in msn and sms, so im too lazy to repeat it here HEHEHEHHEHE suckerssssssss -shot-

so yea. urm. April22 ima go buy myself a can of beer LOL

and.

i wanna draw so badly bawwwwwwww

brush setting test. cant wait to try out when i get time to paint again. other than that, the program which i gasm over is now cracked and english-ed.... NOW I REALLY CANT WAIT TO FIND TIME AND PLAY WITH IT BAWWWWWWWWWWW IM MISSING OUT ALL THESE AWESUMNESSSSS //dies

then then thennnn i was talking to HL like my epic sms session with the 17 y'o local DA which draws so awesomely pro the past few journal entry before... urm... sentence too long where was i..... ah rightttt our epic morning sms session. we continue to text each other until lunch time LMAO

it was her first day in college so i was updating her on DA stuff and we talking about college and what not and well. thats not my point. THE POINT ISSSSSS!!! HL went and counted our age difference and my brain exploded.

6 years. 6 freaking years diffy between a 23y'o and a 17y'o like OMGGGG WHERE DID THAT COME FROM!? like when u say 23 and 17 u dun feel the distance like THAT much, but when u actually counted it..... it.. seem... like im.. very old bawwwwwwwwww now i cant spazz with her like i used toooooooo jk jk i can still ttly spazz wtih my anyone coz im always the grandma in DA group friends LOL

for all the love

im feeling kind and happy today coz boss approve of the new menuboard design on the first round. maybe his just having mercy on me coz i sux arse much but yea i went to mcD to celebrate and secretly cure my craving for burgers ( actually had pancakes there in the morning LOL )

and so me alone in 4 seated table. very zen. i dun finish my frieds all the time and coke can be refilled. so i thought. since their ganna trash the frieds anyway. and i can refill the coke for free.... why not i make a special left over set and give it to another person?

yep. thats what i did.


Pasar Seni. Im pretty sure a lot of ppl stare at me like im crazy but oh well. im happy. i pass by another one before this person, he was looking pretty fine so i dun want to give him. this second sad person was "looking" pretty handicap in mental capability and he was skinny so yea. I have my reason of picking ppl too.

one of my DA friend drew me a vday presenttttt bawwwwww im so touched

coz all my characters are shit ugly or complicated to draw so i really appriciated it when someone takes their time to draw themmmmmm //crysmoar//

and saying that. Canary did another fanartttt omgggg //spasm//

Reverse cat X Typo corgy2 by *chisachan2010 on deviantART

I love her drawing so much QwQ



but...



after all the joy and love. Dad called and said mom got warded.
Lets pray and hope for the best mom is okay...
and let my good deed of the day be returned.

[edit]
the results are out. its stones. and that is as much personal detail i can review here.

dramu. gatta catch em all.

my boss just called. and its a very funny thing.

"Liz, repeat after me. I will tell the truth and nothing but the truth, so dear God help me."
"urm... okayy... I will tell the truth and nothing but the truth, so dear God help me. wats up?"
"Have you ever seen your neighbor fall asleep?"
"Yea"
"Is your phone camera working?"
"Yea"
"Okay, so i need you to take a picture of that for me."
"Oh. okay.... do u want him with the headphones too?"
"Yes. If you want a better camera, you can borrow my iphone"
"oooo okayy. so is that like, my job after CNY?"
"Yes."
"Alrightt~"
"Thanks liz"

so yea. it was so sudden that i became some Ninja Spy Cat with kodak moment. the next day. he Yahoo messager me.

"Dont forget ur 'secret mission' "
"of cozzzzzz"
"our future depend on you young padawan"
"lmao"
"May the force be with you"
"okayyy Martin"
"I sense disturbance in among the force. Dont fail me my child, to great length we must go"
"Roger -salute-"

I. have. no idea. its just too random from a boss.

the thing is, boss and the accountant have been neck to neck. and the biger boss doesnt wanna fire the old man coz pity him. so ma boss finally snap when the old accountant argue with him a day back. about not wanting to help out couting the salary coz its not his job and regadless of one of out workmate gettin hospitalize, he doesnt really give a shit coz its not his job.

so yea. dramu. heres sth light. on me having stalkers.



yea no kidding. this person in DA wont leave me alone. but no more, coz i became inactive in the group.

IT CAME

earlier than expected XD

its so big i was doubting myself whether i got the right one....


this was how freaking big the box is!!! A3 sizeeee


mmmmmmmmm nice introduction~~~


understandable icon to show the steps.


okay now we're somewhereeeee, A4 size+ as i know it.


shaking with so much joyyyyy


FFFFF dun waste la paper/material dear wacommmm


so epic. and no the mouse is not wacom included mouse.


Vic-mon's artwork. lololol


now my set of equipments is complete. sexy blacksssssss


its as big as my lappy.


ughhhh so expensive but im just too happy to care right nowwww i can finally draw againnnnn!!! all thanks to Mok for delivering it to meeeeeeeee weeeeeee -rolls on floor-

for once

in my life. i look forward to christmas epicly hard. like. ubberly until i feel like i might have heart attack or asthma the next second. lmao. its been so longgggggg since i last drawn sth!!! having a habit of puking art every weekend to release the inspiration blockage of weekdays is taking a toll on this poor cat.

by poor i mean my new bby cost me ;w;

TIME! please pass faster and go slower on saturday!!! its all i can think of right nowww omg omg omgggg tronnnn---- i mean, tablettttttttt -foams- my drawing list just got longer over timeeeeee -foams moar- 8E



oh last sunday when me and my younger sis was waiting for the bus to get to kl sentral then to time square for CF. there was this japanese old couple that walk to the bus stop too. so they were like finding sth and turn to ask "is this Taman Desa" so i said "yes" and the lady was looking pretty glad and happy.

then the man ask again "Taman Desa Shopping mall?" i was puzzled so i ask "Kl sentral?" since most tourist would go there or pasar seni to buy stuff. then again they don dress as if they were going out for a very long trip... he reply "Shopping mall" i move on with "MidValley? you need to take the bus there"

im guessing his as puzzle as i was. so he pointed to the roll of shoplots behind us "Taman Desa shopping mall only here?" from there i thought they wanted to go to the center of the taman, so stood up and tell them to follow me.

the lady was very happy. she went "ahhh arigato arigato" and bow bow to us. so i walk out till the crossroad until i can see the GREEN sign board of a restaurant which pretty much a good indicater for them to get there.

so i turned and said "Kokode. Aoi des. temo shopping mall ga chicou des" hand motion to point the board and "small". ( its there, the "green". but the shopping mall is small ) im pretty sure i suprise them that i could speak a little japanese heheheehheheh~~~

then the lady started saying arigato again and this time bowing 90degree at me, so i went "daizoubu daizoubu" and bow to her... and it ended up into a bowing session. she said thanks again and bow again i did the same lololol

after like 2 round of bowing i decided this needs to be stop. so i walk back to the bus stop after the goodbye. then i ask my sis to confirm "is 'Aoi' green?" she said "isnt green 'MIDORI'?" i went "FFFFFFF FML I TOLD THEM 'AOI'! orz"

Aoi - 青い - Blue
Midori - 緑 - Green

i learn my japanese color lesson now. but the lady was so cuteeeeeeeeee and the way they say english was so adorable. the way she bows and thanks and looking so happy. its just too cute to pass. and if its not the place they are looking for... im sorry la... i did my best... there wasnt a shopping mall there but just 7eleven and hypermarket.

once again. watching anime pays of!! XD



PS:
I took tomorrow off to accompany family to sent sis off to airport. so i guess its going to pass a lot more faster compare to a working day. w00t. my boss was reluctant to approve of my day off. lmao.

and.

mouse cging over my freelance work is no fun. my wrist hurts from the touch up and trying to get the stroke angle right orz

Dedicated to my beloved.

the wire of my tablet has been confirmed damaged.

I'll be gettin a new one for xmas present LOL need to complete this round of freelance job and get enough cash for a new bby. i'll miss my graphire. such awsm companion for the last 6 years. you've outlive your worth and mere value price for helping me improve so much.

truly. I'll miss you.

urm yea

wow talk about quick reply. yes Angie. which sunday indeed.



another job alert. and i think its the same company i freelance for from PH. HMMMMMM.



new discovery! even video links can be shared this way!! how awesome is that. it evens links and plays from youtub.... but in YOUR. CHATROOM. -foams again-

and my diarrhea haven finish. my arse is sore damn it. WIP gay drawing


went to 3 separate outlet today, damn tiring. from 4 to 930pm ( but im just tagging along the boss and techinician in ze boss' new car to set up some banner in Cinnabon outlet ) 1U, The Mall and Sunway. i meet with my best bud in sunway so its worth it. she and her bf still very lovey dovey, good to see her all well and doing Rotoscoping for job entrance test.... wow. epic job.

so yea

its the 4th month and i've officially sign the contract of selling souls.

yesh. i've been confirmed. now with a raise salary of 100, i just realized that everytime i want to take a pay leave ( since i haven work a year and i dun have annual leave ) its rm60 instead of rm50. FML.

on the happier side if i dun think of the money so much.

IM FREAKING GOING HOME TOMORROWWW RARRRRRRRR and coming back down on sunday. yes i took leave for saturday which is a half day but they still minus it as a day's pay leave. baw. okay please dont let me think about it so much.

fuhahaahahaha peace here i comeeeee hirooo here i comeeeee dad here i come in surprise to celebrate ur belated birthdayyyyyyy!!!!

and i have siewlin to thank for. she offered me a ride home together with hooiling -luvluvluv-

as a result. grandma wanted me to bring tons of fish up. office wants me to buy snack for them. and i have my own stuff to bring up. oh gwad. im going to be so embarrassed when i carry 3 box into siewlin's car on the trip back KL. FML again.

oh im feeling it

the old man illness. damn u rain. for coming every morning which i dun get to sleep over you.

it rain heavily this morning and i was wearing skinny jeans ( coz it wasnt raining when i left the house ). with my shoe, sock and half of my jeans wet. its not a nice feeling at all. got to the office with the air con on. omg. fong sap ahhhhhhh!!!! but before that i went to shelter at McD's. the coffee was extra bitter compare to last week. HMMM...

so after work i went to McD again. to grab lunch since they didnt buy for me coz i forgot to mention i wasnt going out for the day. fufufufu ma delicious punishments fatmeal. orz

ima feeling so fat now.

so yea i order a take away and settle down in pasar seni lrt, where they have these newly renovate walk path which is so ubber clean and futuristic it doesnt belong there at all. so i sat there and daydream with my cholesterol meal.

and went to the bus station once im done. guess wat? an innocent lil girl and the mother waited for bus near me. the lil girl came and talk to me, which i have no idea what she said in high mumble speed.

the mother pulled her away from me, and she turn to her mother and ask sth. i hear only this part.

"perempuan ke?" ( a girl? )

and that made me smile to her. i was amused like every other time ppl mistook me for a guy. so as i mention. i was wearing skinny jeans, with body fit cloths, and a untamed bushy lion mane. that got me thinking. what is this innocent lil girl not seeing?

but then again i thought. the generation of males are getting girlly gay. with many keeping long hair even though it doesnt freaking suit them. and they own more skinny jeans that me. sooooo it not really my fault for being so manly!! its them that is being too girlly!!

lmao. its pretty true when u think about it XD

it was really stupid

i woke up at 5 in the morning. bath and went out to wait for the bus at 530am.

almost reach the bus stop and i check my watch. and pause on track.

".... why is the shorter hand behind.... wait..... am i suppose to wait for the bus at 630 or 530...!?"

and so i came to the conclusion that. im either stress or blur. and went back home to sleep for another hour for the "official wait for bus time"

orz

and i just found out that my marketing work mate. whose same age as me. has a 12 years age gap boyfriend. OMG PEDOOOOOOOOO -bricked- it was pretty shocking to me since i never thought of meeting anyone with these kind of situation.

well. love is ageless. gwad bless them.

things that will just surpise you

my grandma complimented my cg havin nice color. i suspect she likes pink. im so surprise i dun know wat to say or think orz


give me a hand by ~catkate on deviantART

went to movie last saturday, to watch the Owl Movie. im too lazy to type the whole name which i barely remembers anyway. it was awesome. but too short. the slow mo is to die for and the armor craving is just so niceeeeeee

but the thing is. i went to watch alone. lmao. i was sandwich between 2 couples. on my right is a malay couple, the female makes squeeky noise every time she sees sth cutee. really make ppl wanna slap her.

before i head to time square for the movie. ze boss had assessment with us newbie. it was intense! and i mention sth which i shouldnt, but oh well. life. well at least now he doesnt have to put high hopes on me...

YAY NEW SEASON NEW ANIMEEEEEEE -runs away-
CONSTIPATION DAMN IT

ah zenness

aside from my face being nuke by pimpls and pms-ing. today was a zen day.

came back from the "open office(house)" and the cousins went to tuition. it was raining and quiet. wat else could i ask for? so i sat down and starting cg-ing my old line art. and..... i kind of amused myself right now.



look like a 10 level jump from my normal cg rate. lmao. im hoping the background would turn out well too. then this will be the most awesome picture i've done XD it all began with my long-but-finally-satisfied curiosity on how Paint Tool SAI's water tool works.

nice righttttttt (wait until u see it in dark background! ) SAY ITS NICE OR I WONT TREAT YOU ICE-CREAM D<

i found out after a long absent from RPing and internet. my typing gone horrible and i need to retype every 1/10words. spelling gone bad too and i need to stare at the keyboard to type now. NOESSSSSSSSS!!!!

okay back to the amused part. my comic have gone on haitus obviously. but i notice one thing. im pretty amazing for drawing those pages. it was like "wow.... did i do this" kind of moment when u either feel stupid about urself or maybe u were once smarter -shot-

so yea. a happy day for me. hope my pimple will go away and i'll get another inspirational moment like these~~~


ps.
im pretty sure the male cousin went into the wrong gender rebirth portal. his sooooo fucking noisyyyyyyyyyyyyy even before going to sleep he has to make everyone stress and make more fuck up noise. i know my zenness wont last long... grandma is not helping either... being a broken record and all. 1 question u have to answer at least 3 times... my next wish will be 24hour zen day pls. minus insomia too thank you.

orly

im starting to believe that everytime i get very unnecessarily stress up, things will turn out well in the end. well at least i seen it happen recent few days.


- printing person didnt get the AI file on wednesday and we need the voucher printed out by friday and thurday is holiday, he stayed up late making similar design coz he promised us he will rush it for us.

- 200survey in a not so crowded Mall, impossible i thought, and there comes the awsm aunty whom save me and my friend's ass.

- ranted that i dun have time for my own entertainment on weekends, i ended spending 60% of the sunday alone at home coz they went out before i could get home from midvalley.

- when i tot year end without any more holiday was sad, mom called and say we're going on a family trip to disney land in hong kong. wow. first ever family trip. which is not missing either the mother or the father.


maybe. just maybeee, i should get stress over everything!! and believing that they will end up well some how. doesnt sound like a bad idea to me XD

newfeeling!

well. came back from interview and as expected i didnt get the job. arrived there early and sat down to doodle in their form, its part of the requirement.

then i got sent up to wait for the interview, the first guy named Kang took my drawing/form/sketchbook to show his team (i think) and return to ask me a few question, then he sent me to another guy that is responsibile for story boarding since i said i dun mind doing story board.

this guy named Tee looks like a strict person. he went to my stuff and commented straight forwardly. i know my drawing skill is not of any level yet, so most of his comment didnt hurt me so. he was kind enought to recommand me to another department though. said i was more suited to Editing and 3D. so yea, im waiting for their HR to call me.

as for salary, i filled in 1.8 as told by sister, aunt, and dad. the result was as i told them tons of times, fresh grad isnt given such high amount. to be honest, im greatful to even get 1.5 actually...

so yea, AsiaMediaTV next. and another company i found on newspaper. and more jobstreet-ing since im already in the capital with nothing better to do... but to be honest.

im kind of happy i didnt get that job. i get to keep my drawing as a hobby and not stress it up like hard labor job. and well... i dun need to draw lame stuff at least (but thats just making me sound llike i cant draw em) XD he did say my stuff was good though. just that i cant draw anything as good outside my style.

so! all is well =)

omg nervous ahhh

just this morning i apply job and the guy called around 5 just now. to be honest, i haven check out the website or the company detail before i click apply and sent stuff to them. feel like i could handle the job according to the description in jobstreet...

so yea i went to their site after the guy called me for a chat, he was pretty concern about me moving to KL since im in perak... but im more concern on how to get to the company for the interview O___o"

DigiMagic Communications pte ltd is located in Singapore, but theres the branch in KL. he told me something about a road show that he and his team is working on, and their traveling around Asia for it. wow pressure...

hope he doesnt call me up any day before friday... thurs is mom's bday!! ganna go order a cake for her tomorrow XD

so yea, for those who are reading... IM COMING BACK TO KL!!!