i woke up this morning. amazed at myself. im still ranting mentally about yesterday and still very much pissed off. thank gwad i didnt need to see you this morning or else i have no idea wat ill OFFEND YOU AGAIN.
its obvious that your bias, and it obvious that you have sth agains me. dont piss me off, your 3 website design is still in my hand. i doubt jessica is going to do it unless u threaten her to. i still hold my possition in this place.
im very thankful today that im alone with Ann in the office. and i found out quite a lot of stuff. mostly things about my life and of Ann's and jessica's that we have lots in common. i have no problem getting along with them, i have no problem gettin along with next door intern, and i have no problem communicating with mz.
so what is wrong?
i chat with ma 2 buddy today. and as far as im concern, my normal conversation style is not offending nor insulting at all. they cheer me up quite a bit. im happy to see that im still me and not some insult shooting machine once i open my mouth. when was i ever one anyway? the most violent time u see lize is when shes online typing her blog. yea. now.
had 3 bitching session when i hitch a ride with an jie. celine had conversation with him this morning and apparently what's his pissed off about is very childish. the fact that i "indirectly" "insulted" him being fat(which i myself also didnt know i did... tell me who cant remember things when they want to insult ppl anyway unless they act all bimbo and stupid which i am not) and also i didnt respect him.
ha. ha. ha. funny... real funny. if you know your fat then take it. im in not good shape myself and why do u have the idea that im a discriminating person toward fat ppl? i admit all the time that i need to go on diet and i take all the "lize is bigger in size" comment without any "offence". unlike someone who goes all mood swing on one unintentional comment. i didnt even say any thats the problem.
my comments/follow-up-comment regardless from you or susan, you'll still get pissed anyway. you want to play "friend" but you couldnt take it to the end. the truth is, ur the one that allow me to play "friend". go and ask anyone in college, lecturer specially. i dun get all friendly with them until im given permission to relax around them.
around real friends, we tease each other until we spilled our mental guts out laughin. so if u want to play so badly while maintaining the boss level. i dun think thats possible. coz when u start conversation as friend, and suddenly you mood swing when you dun like certain comments, you turn boss and starts to threated ppl. which kills the fun and u made enemies.
and theres not even a second to react to that coz ur mood swings are like mili-second. since you already have sth against me. i dun wanna waste my effort pleasing you, coz i know its going to "unintentionally" piss u off more. no?
if ya ganna say its all lize's fault. stop using "us" just say its my fuck up fault that screw up ur fuck up mood then. im true to myself in real life. but i don expression myself as true as what you are readin now.
lize is capable of shuttin up for the whole day. ask Ann, she experience it today. i didnt say shit coz she didnt start any conversation with me until dinner that it. i have long term friends as my referee, even short term friends like nick who knows im not like that.
im an open book. hang out with me long enough and u'll get to flip my pages.
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