Ima rant now

lelelele coz i haven been doing much of those lately. so here goes.


CAN YOU FAKING GROW UP!? IM YOUNGER AND IM MENTALLY MORE MATURE THAN YOU AREEEEEEE as lifeless as i am, im working and freelancing and doing art for fun BUT YOUUUUUU DONT YOU HAVE WORK TOO!? DONT YOU FREAKING HAVE OTHER STUFF TO DO TOO!? when u know im busy, dont try to freaking hint your needs to me damn itttttt COZ I CANT BE A BUSY MOTHER THAT TAKES CARE OF A CHILD'S NEEDS WHEN THAT CHILD IS CAPABLE ENOUGHT TO UNDERSTAND AND TAKE CARE OF YASELF

like. srsly. grow uppp okayyy grow uppppppp. dun make yaself sound like some fantacy creature that lives only on certain activity and thats all you really do when you talked to meeee I WANNA TALK LIKE NORMALLY TOOO and not stray into some fak up dream land of your's. okay!? i have a life and i cant satisfied everyone, this cat only has 1 life and im living desperately to make it as fullfilling as possible but its impossible.

DA is good entertainment to me, stress release. but when YOU TAKE THINGS SO SRSLY LIKE U NEED CHILL PILL COZ ITS ALL JUST A GAMEEEEEE IT MAKE ME STRESS like veryy. coz omg i dun know if im too mentally mature or i cant take simple entertainment to another level of seriousness that i fail to compile with ya wave lenght i dly dun know now.

and when i dun respond. dun make it sound like im obligated to.

1+1=2

you dun say anymore than that coz it'll be just shitty weird when you say more nonsense when ur not in the mood or just nothing to continue on, like really. dun make it sound like im ditching you or ignoring you or im just too self indukging in my work workaholic world coz i need to feed myself and save money coz nothing faking last forever!!!!

like 1+1=2reallynowcozijustatepizzaandifeellikepukingbutthenagainitsveryannoyingthatwenee
atleast6hourofsleeptoreducediabetyratelikewtfikr!?andcontinuetoblahlikesomefakingbitchwit
nolife

point taken yes? = =

and. went someone is not happy, i'll guilt trip like im on the illustion of never ending stair case. though it not my fault, i'll still sacrifice my end of the fun to ma ya happy. not good enough? srsly? just coz i cant use my time like you coz im a faking poor bastard whom took work like air, ya just ganna ditch my end of sacrifice coz u get to have more fun with others!? no fair mang no fair. i made you happy but it just wasnt enough to satisfy ur hunger and so ya dumping me for a better deal!?

fine really. everyone knows i put on a good facade/acting skill.


so yea. on the happier note. Blow brought me a sub which i have yet again no use of. orz why is ppl being so kind to me.... when we're just online friends... and another happier note. moving out is giving me so much zenness im in very bliss state to even stay angry for long.

but.

grandma freaking called me before her bed time just to nag and tell me how to take care of maself OMGGGGGGGGG IM OLD ENOUGH TO DO THAT MANGGG I KNOW U CARE BUT DO U KNOW THAT IT ANNOYS ME TO THE MAX TOO!? i ttly lost my zen mood for the night //crais