obligation

can i ever convince myself that its the company/boss' obligation to make sure the worker has the equipment to work with?

i know i have a very heavy self-proclaim-obligation complex but isnt it normal to get stress when they get:
1. a brand new rm4k Mac for you
2. the complete Adobe suit extended cs5 pack for you
3. Lightwave 3D and tell u to name any plugins you need


yep, u read right. yesterday and today i work on the stall's 3D model. Martin was observing behind, damn pressure. and after a while, he goes back into his room and comes back out after a long while later and annouce, "liz do you want to do that with mac?" i was so damn shock and blur i dun know wat to say.

he came to my desk and install the program. i ask him how did he get it, he wont tell me. as for as i know, these kind of company doesnt support illegal stuff, so he must have brought it online or sth. shit, im stress. they are spending so much money on me and i dun even know if im staying permenantly, this is going to get into my guilt list if im leaving.

then my workmate said positively, he wanted me to have the right tools to work with. and i summerized the negative part for her. specially buy for u -> want you to work like shit -> I might OT often with that -> go home late -> pissed off lizard.

life.


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i peel off the deadskin 8D