just wanna get it out

lize doesnt know how to be human because

1. i didnt visit my second aunt whom came from singapore.
2. i dont know how to build relationship with ppl for future usage.
3. i dont give a shit at all.

reasons why im not human

1. we nothing in common and i dun wanna piss anyone including myself with any conflict. specially with kids. u all already know that i hate noisy kids. and theres 2 of them there. boys too.

2. Friends with benefits, fine, Relative with benefits? so lets say i am going to study/work in singapore, does that means i have to put on a fake skin to be nice with them so that i can use them for my own good? i tot families are suppose to help each other during crisis? i know the world now doesnt apply that sentence but is letting me stay at their house a bit too much? as far as i am, i dun like to trouble people. if im financially challenged then it cant be help. whose the one who tell me i have to make it my own and not rely on people too much?

3. I have 2 bags and no transport. I need to travel a lot if i were to balance out friends and family time. I'm hangin out with friends to day and going to visit college tomorrow, im going to move to susan's place whose kind enough to offer the stay for Langkawi trip. the weather is hot, i'll get headache fast. i dun wanna fall sick. im tired. i dun wanna bother ppl to drive me around with their already busy life.

so if u have any doubts about me, please right click delete my image. coz im inhumane. why does it feel like holiday is a lot more stress then college days... 3 rant post in a row. wow. i miss my solitary life.