thinking

i did a lot. due to the death of my lappy @ 5am in the morning.

so yea, besides crisis core-ing the whole day. ben gave me sth to think about which doesnt help in my current situation at all. which explains why it was added to my despair. conclusion. internet helps as pain killer to numb myself from thinking too much.

without it. ull get emotard lize. but i've made my decision. whether its good or bad i dun know. life is a mistake. if we take away the mistake. wat is there to life? perfection is no fun. perfection doesnt create memories.

i like moments like "shit should hv blah blah that time" its sth to talk about and remind myself to be better. regrets is part of life. its a mistake to feel that at the same time. this is what i've decided.

shit.

i need a new lappy. dell studio xps 16 is tempting.