we're only human. okay?

putting on a facade is normal. typical asian or a friend dun say things straight to your face. this is why i have a ranting zone. in case u want to know. this is also a similar situation with my first housemate. just coz i didnt say it to her face and she want me too so badly we ended up like that.

but its all good, coz we make up after a long separation.

i did put a warning notice before u enter the zone. its a TEMPORARY OUTBURST OF ANGER. get it? temporary? its like a spurr of the moment thing. i dun keep my anger for that long coz i know it kills my brain cell and i dun wanna die that early.

as for the cases that we are facing right now. i cant say im happy but its not unbearable either. im the kind of person that lives by your rule. if theres really a ground i cant agree on, ill rebel. but i tried to get along as much as my patiences can take me.

i do admit life is all a fake play. who dont? i mean, faking coz theres a benefits to you. its all contradicting and unbalance but we still live through it anyway. believe me, i do feel guilty for all the things i've done, regardless if im the one whose wrong or not. it's just that i dun show. i put into action.

conclusion: not everyone likes to say it to your face.

if u really cant take my facade anymore. i'll welcome your discussion and ranting like i did for the previous person. coz im not really good with head on argument. most of the time i back up coz i dun want things to ended up badly. once i know i step over your territories, ill refrain myself with a boundaries.

i have my pride too u know. but ill be more than willing to say

"I'm sorry"

coz humans grow up with mistakes and there's no telling if u hurt anyone that badly unless u discover so. so yea, if ur reading this. come to me if there's a need. i dun need another new friend, all i need is understanding.