if my blood

test is normal. then im mentally abnormal then. parents haven retrieve my test report but they say its probably nothing going on with me, if not that doctor would have called already... honestly, i wanted sth wrong so i could have an excuse to break away from work.

im start to get pissed at ppl that have too much time on their hand, specially to the person whom so obessessed with me. it piss me off EVERY. DARN. TIME she gets to rest and doesnt want to, and keep on telling me shes sick and what not. guess what. im gettin emo and angry right now im sick of you.

im pissed at myself too, for not being able to slack even on weekends, im so angry i keep on working on my freelance nontheless. really. im just so tired right now... so tired... i just feel like givin up everything and sleep in peace for once without worring about deadlines.

im also raging cause i cant get into a livestream which it's viewer limit has passes and i've been desperately trying to keep myself awake.... for... work. i wanna cry omg... what am i doing with my life... and when i look to the chatroom beside the stream, ppl i know are chatting their time away and having so much fun. what am i doing? work. every freaking time i work.

and im jealous of them, not going to hide it, im so jealous of ppl being carefree and happy right now i need to punch someone... feel the pain i gave them and the bones i collide with my fist. i need to rant or better still... i wanna sleep AND QUIT WORKING FOR A MONTH OR TWO!! SCREW LIFEEEEEE WHAT AM I WORKING SO HARD FOR!?

... tested and proven that i need to draw one in a while. if not this is what i'll get, emo and angry. i need to go braindead and sketch my night away... ugh... i. wanna. get. sick. and. not. work. now. like. right. now.

so... tired...