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Right so... i think the situation is far worst than i thought.... mom doesnt wanna let me bike my way to work and i dun wanna waste money on patrol and parking if she really comes to a conclusion of gettin me a car... so lets do some calculation.


15min : home to bus stop
N/A : wait for bus
Rm1.2 : bus fee
10min : Bus to arrive working area
10min : Walk to office
Rm6 : Lunch that doesnt taste good nor filling
15min : Off from work and walks to futher busstop
N/A : wait for bus
Rm1 : bus fee
10min : Bus to arrive living area
20min : takes longer to go home coz im tired
Rm4 : Taxi from living area to my condominium, if im back home late...
Rm7 : Dinner


Rental 360, rough travel fee 70, rough lunch fee 120 and dinner fee 210 which totally up to 760 give or take added taxi fee 40, thats 800 now.... food i'll add in another 100 just coz i cant eat the same meal all the time... thats 900 now. Pretty close to my last budget calculation but this one.... more time wasted cause its bus.

FML.

though. if i work on saturday, i get tuesday off. so im going to see if PH could let me go next tues, so i can go home on satuday morning and come back on tuesday afternoon. im sure i deserve some good rest //crys//

i know ppl dont meant what they say when they chat online. but i feel kind of offended or irritated sometimes. well, the fact that they cant see my face renders them useless in reading my mood until i tells them... but really now. some are just too carefree while im worrying over the fact that i might die of heart attack of all this stress.


I add "lmao" "lol" "XD" at the end of my serious statement sometimes coz i really dun want to kill anyone's mood with my gloominess/srsness when im actually facing my own bitter reality. Not their's but mine alone....

I stay up late to paint and make art deadlines coz i promise my DA friend i would. but to get comments saying "Wonders do happen after all" like as if i never make my deadlines before or i never put effort into it my art... i feel so. angry.

and guess what? Its urs caused by yours truly 30y'o unemployed RP addict.

I dun feel like replying.

and still no news about my blood test.